How often do we judge and blame ourselves for things which are out of our control?
My journey with debilitating, ongoing mental illness began in earnest during my first pregnancy. There was so much shame and self-judgment for the horrifying intrusive thoughts I began having. We had to hide the knives in our house and that was really scary to have to take that precaution.
But were those thoughts my choice? No. Did they reflect that I was already a bad mom? No. They stemmed from an illness triggered by trauma and hormonal shifts.
If you are struggling with scary thoughts today, with inexplicable pain, and with day-to-day tasks feeling difficult, please know you are not alone. Please know it is not your fault. Please reach out. There is help for you, if you just ask.
@Regrann from @thepostnatalproject -